My First D.A. Commitment

The first commitment I made to D.A. was stay long enough to decide for myself whether everyone in D.A. really was completely and utterly insane or whether I might be experience a little resistance. It took me three incredibly long months to make that decision. I suspect is was an even longer three months for my dear friend who introduced me to D.A. I called him after every meeting and ranted about what those crazy people said and did this time. Althought I think I made a few good arguments, my friend always reminded me that it's not really about them. I have the choice to take only what I want and I can leave the rest alone. The choice was mine to focus my attention on the man who plays with this toes throughout the meetings or on what's being shared. I don't ever have to go to another meeting again if I don't want to. Funny thing is, the more meetings I go to, the less crazy the people appear to be and the more squirelly my own thinking sounds to me. And even funnier than that is that I'm the best me I've ever been. I know I can't buy the kind of security and safety I was going further into debt tryin to buy. I suspect D.A. will never add "do you think everyone in DA is crazy?" as number 14 on the Signposts on the Road to Becoming a Compulsive Debtor. If they had, it would have been a yes for me.

There are days when I question my own sanity and that of my fellow D.A. members but mostly I'm grateful and proud to be one of the people that some other newcomer is burning their D.A. sponsors ear off about.

Keep coming back and make a commitment to the program.

—DINK